Friday, December 25, 2009

Christmas

I can't believe I forgot!

Merry Christmas!!!

is what I was going to say but come to think about it, I'm not even a Christian, why should I be wishing Merry Christmas?

And for that matter, why should any non-Christians?

Haha.

But still, for the fun of it,

Merry Christmas!!!

Let's all be jolly and merry in this season of giving!=)


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To my Future

The Aftermath

Hmm. I was told that I'm supposed to get a hangover after taking too much alcohol. I typed 'hangover' in dictionary.com and here was what I get.


hang⋅o⋅ver
–noun
the disagreeable physical aftereffects of drunkenness, such as a headache or stomach disorder, usually felt several hours after cessation of drinking.


Ok...

So I'm feeling a lil bit of dizziness. But it's a really really slight bit. Is that supposed to be the hangover? Haha. The light-headed feeling is still there though. My stomach... feels kinda empty. Probably cuz I vomitted out my dinner yesterday. Haha.

I guess that's all for my hangover.

Other effects wise, my typing speed now seems really really slow as compared to yesterday. I think I took like only 25 minutes for my post yesterday. That's considerably fast for me. I think my thoughts processing speed has also dropped. Thoughts flowed really easily when I was typing yesterday. Right now I have to think a bit before I can put my thoughts into words.

I'm more or less back to my normal, retarded self yea.

Oh, and hello Ben Hong! Wasn't expecting anyone to visit my dead blog but looks like there's still a visitor. Haha.


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To my Future

D5unk

Oh my god. I'm drunk.

Seriously drunk. And I just got hhome on my bike. haha. And I just realised that i'm damn bloody pro on my bike. when i'm on my bike i'm like a god-totally alert dodging obstacles by centimetres instinctively. I think that's because i've rode my bike more than a thousand times already. Yea. So the muscle memory's fucking imprinted into me. Haha.

So, I went to Chevron's for a Christmas celebration tonight. I promised myself that I'll get myself drunk tonight. And I told many of my friends too. Haha. I think i'm crazy. And They ask my how i'm going to get home. I said by bike. And they ask how many times have I drank. i replied that this was my second time. Haha. I'm crazyh

So I asked them how much do I need to drink before i'll get drunk . I've already drank a bottle of erdinger? Yaea. Something like that. Zhuang Wei said 4 more glass of tiger beer and I'm somewhere there already. so i said i'll drink that muich. but if i don't get drunk, i'll keeep on drink ing till i've capped at 2 bottles of beer (i've only got 2 coupons) and 10-cups fo tiger beer. haha.

And guess what. I think i was already drunk at my first bottles of erdinger. but they insisted that i'm not drunk uet. what i'm experienceing was merely the effects of alcohol. Feeling light-headed wasn't considered drunk. Moreover, i was still able to stand and talk. Sadi mervyn. Ying Bo said that when I get drunk it would be my friends telling me and not me telling my friends that i'm drunk. haah. so i took their workds.

about 2 bottles and 8 glasses later, i think my friends confirmed that i was drunk. i think even one of the waitress who served me beer told me that i'm drunk and i should stop. earlier on she heard me telling my friend this was my second time drinking beer. the first time was during the specs mess initiation in 30 SCE. so i've never been drunk before. hehe. yea. she asked me if i was ok a few times before too. wa, to care for me even though we're strangers. haha. i'm touched lei.

but then again. i could still walk. though the images are confusing me, i can still avoid obstacles perfectly. without hesitation too. i think i hesitate too much when i'm conscious. i think too much. fuck it. haha. i've gone tipsy. i think i've lost it already. but i still look ok. i'm just too good an actor, maybe. or maybe it's my willpowver. the will to stay and look focused and alert when inside i'm already cui. haha.

so anyway. everyone told me not to ride my bike home. but i told them i will. they said i'm crazy. that's only something one who is drunk will say. i said i'm probably drunk but i'll still ride my bike home. zhuang wei wanted me to hand my phone over so that he can call my parents. so i showed him my mom's handphone no. but then i took the phone from him at the very last minute and told him there was no need to. haha. he told me i'm seriously drunk and i'm out of my mind.

sometime down the road, i vomitted. it was so natural. like i knew it was coming. and i told people i was going to the toilet to vomit. and vomit i did. bleagh. out it came. until i was done. i was so natural i couldn't actually believe it. when i had stomach flu, i simply resisted the vomitting and took the anti-vomitting pill and endured it all. but this time i vomitted without the slightest hesitation. i guess when you're drunk everything seems so easy-decisions are made on the spot. haha.

right. so in the end, i took my leave without anyone noticing. or you can call it sneaking out. haha. I made my way to my bike at the lamppost at the back of the parking lot without the slightest stagger even when the whole world is spinning. though i was a bit drunk, i was steady. I was expecting the drunkenness and i guess that gave me some mental preparations. haha.

And I made a choice that most when conscious wouldn't make-to ride my bike home. relax. It's not a motorbike, just a bicycle. but still, drink riding's probably dangerous too. i'm aware of that, but to gain an experience, there're some things i have to try out.

Turns out that i was simply godlike when i'm on my bike. Haha. I was totally awake. But whenever I stopped the bike at traffic junctions, the dizziness kicks in again. And I sway here and there when i'm dizzzy. haha.

Anyway, I think few believed that I'm drunk. I told sis that i'm drunk when i got home. she didn't think that I'm drunk. I told my parents that I got myself drunk and still rode my bike home. The very fact that I did that prove that I'm drunk. I would never tell my parents that if I'm in the right mind. But still, they didn't think I was drunk. My psychomotor skills were still perfect. Until I told them I drank 2 bottles plus 10 glasses of beer to convince them that I must be drunk. hehe.

Maybe my willpower pulled me through it all. But still, this will be the last time I get myself drunk crazy. One time of me losing control over myself will be all. Yea. Luckily I wasn't raped or molested or something. haha. If not I would totally be dazed and unable to react. haha. not like i'll actually react fast enough even if i'm not drunk though. got molested by some gay dude once and i was simply too stunned to retaliate..

Well, anyway, it's past 12 already.

Happy 19th Birthday Gina! haha. Gina's birthday's on the 24th! This came a bit late on my post but here it is anyway. She's the best friend i'll ever get. Nice, caring, chatty and sensitive. She would make a really good sister or mother. Haha. I'm really random. And well, times are going to be hard and we're probably going to be really busy. But still, I really wish that Gina and I will stay close and keep in contact. =) Yep.

So anyway, getting drunk isn't good. I think i'm still drunk right now but I still need to go take a shower before I go sleep. Ah. Fuck. My head's dizzy at the thought of showering. But i'll do it anyway.

Goodnight.

Argh.


From my Past,
To my Future

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Family Day Talk

This is the sequel to the Family Day Outing.

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Just when I thought I would have some personal space when I got home, mom came to talk to me.

She asked me lots of questions. Asked me about my relationship with Gina. About whether we were still as close. About relationships and what not. It actually sounded pretty awkward. Luckily I was playing chess with the computer. At least there's something to divert my attention when giving her replies.

And well, her general advice was that I shouldn't commit too much to a girl. Girls can be really fickle when it comes to relationships. And she quoted an example of my cousin. She had a boyfriend for quite a few years and everyone thought they would surely be married in the future. But after just one unfortunate incident between them, my cousin broke up with him and had a new boyfriend. The ex is now left heart-broken and although he tried to keep in contact with my cousin, she cut off all means of communication with him. There's currently news that she's going to marry her new bf soon.

Sad isn't it? And to think I never knew of such stuff.

I can't help but to agree with mom on this matter. But then again, I can't say the same for Gina. Because when it's Gina, things are always different. She's gained my trust, so there shouldn't be anything to stop me from committing, well, if there was anything for me to commit to in the first place. Haha.

As we went on and on, dad and sis chipped into the convo as well. And let's just go to the 'dad' part of the convo.

So dad thinks I shouldn't be wasting my time on the computer anymore. I should do something useful. Like try out lots of part time jobs. NS is the best time to try out new things and get more experience. I rebutted that it's almost impossible to find part time jobs that will allow you to work only on the weekends. And it's very common to have a duty on a weekend too, making it hard to sustain a part time job.

Honestly, I think I'm really just lazy. All I was trying to do was to worm myself out of the situation and just get on with my boring life.

And all of a sudden, I psycho-ed myself to be inspired!

Trying out all sorts of crazy things before entering uni will be fun! Let's do it! Like now! Or since I can't do that now, I can set myself a target of earning $30000 before I ord so I can cover my uni fees and expenses! Hmm... But isn't that a bit far-fetched? Maybe I can take on multiple tuition assignments! That would be quite a reasonable move to make for now.=)

Ok, so that was the temporary 'high' I got back then. I had that sudden urge to elaborate my plans on my blog, and I did started an entry. But 2 hours have passed since and I think I'm not so 'high' anymore. Screw my ambitions. I think I'm tired.

And when you're tired, sleep's the most important. Later.


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To my Future

Family Day Outing

It's another post!

Today's Family Day. Yep. Because I decided to name it so.

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Ok, so my original entry was supposed to be about my outing with my family today. So I guess I'll talk about it first.

The outing was quite an impromptu thing-it was only this morning that mom decided she was free and wanted the family to go out for lunch. And we did. We went to Thai Village Restaurant? for some shark's fin lunch. We went there mainly because mom loves the shark's fin meal she once had there and also because she got two $50 discount coupons from the newspaper.

But really, down inside I was opposing to such extravagant spending - especially on a shark's fin soup that costs like $50. I even tried to dissuade mom subtly by pointing out that the contents of shark's fin is not much different from that of our fingernails. And I could go on and on of course, but I didn't. It was a rare outing, so I simply let them spend money pampering themselves the way they want.

Turns out the meal wasn't really that amazing. The omelette chicken chop meal I had yesterday wasn't too far off from the shark's fin soup+fried prawn with mayo+rice. Our lunch today totalled $300 for 5 adults and a child. An average of $50. Ouch. And I thought the pizza at NYDC during my class outing last week was expensive ($17.50 for a 7 inch).

Ok, that was probably ex anyway.

But today's meal totally broke my heart. They could have bought a psp with that $300. Or maybe a 2nd hand mountain bike. I've always wanted one of those. Or a pair of roller blades. Or an i-touch. Or an mp3 for me (I don't even have one). Or maybe a better camera-less handphone.

Gosh. I think I must have been a really frugal housewife in my previous life. Or maybe a beggar. Haha.

After lunch, sis, bro and I went to the science centre. I really didn't want to go, but my father insisted that I spend some time with my siblings. And I kindly obliged, of course. The science centre changed quite a bit. Some of the old exhibits were repositioned and there were some new exhibits as well. My 'lil bro even brought me to see a tree house! Haha. Ok, random.

Surprisingly, we managed to cover the entire ground by 6, just when science centre's about to close. Had Macs for dinner with the rest of my family before going to the omni theatre at 7. It was sis and bro with me again. Haha.

Watched two documentaries. One was about bears and the other's about marine life and how rising temperatures are endangering many species that live in the sea. When all's done and over, it was already 9.

I guess I'll cover what happened next in my next post. Haha.


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To my Future

Friday, December 11, 2009

200 Pounds Beauty



Just watched 200 pounds beauty a few days ago. Jeremy said it's a really touching movie and brought the dvd to camp so we could watch it during our free time. And we did.

It was touching alright. Yep. Even though Gina already spoiled the plot of the movie for me a long long time ago.

What I think made the movie such a success was not just the plot. It was the music. The songs sang by the lead actress really touched me. Especially that song above. Go ahead, click on that play button if you haven't already.

It's really really good right? Gave me goosebumps when I first heard the song in the movie. I was like 'wow, is that the actress's singing or did she just lip-sync such an amazing song so perfectly?'.

Haha. Anyways, go watch the movie if you haven't. It's never too late to enjoy a good movie!


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To my Future

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Meeting Again

Dead blog revived.

Yoz. Been a really long while since I've updated. Well, it can't be helped, my life's pretty boring and mundane so there's nothing to blog about. Ok, maybe not. That was just an excuse for my laziness. Haha.

Anyway, I had a meeting with good 'ol Gina today! And that made me really really happy!=) So happy that I'm willing to write something on my 5 months dead blog!

Ah! For those of you who don't know Gina, she's a close friend of mine. Actually, she might just be my only close friend. We used to spend quite some time together in j2 and I think we appeared rather scandalous. Haha. But that's beside the point.

The point is I really liked her back then. I felt comfortable and natural in her presence too, which is a something really rare. And we could talk. To have me talking was another rare occurrence. Unless I'm high. Maybe I'm on constant high around her. Just maybe.

But sadly, we didn't get to talk much after jc. It was a really sad period in my life. She went to work during the holidays and for all the jobs available, she actually got a job at the revenue house. Her job deals with confidential stuff and there was nothing about her job that she can tell me about. What's more, the job kept her really really busy and there was no free time for her at all.

There's a saying that good things come in pairs. And well, bad things come in pairs too. Adding on to her work was her involvement in NDP. And yet again, she deals with confidential stuff. NDP was crazy too. Lots of deadlines to meet one after the other. I felt really sad for her but there was nothing I could do-except to give her time for her work.

Weeks and months came and passed. After what seems like eternity, NDP's over. Surely there must be an end to bad things? Guess not. For the next month or so, there was the post-NDP stuff to attend to.

In the midst of that, uni begins. Contrary to common beliefs, uni life was much more hectic than jc life. It was described to be 'an entire jc's syllabus stuffed within 13 weeks'. Needless to say, that left little room to breathe for the poor girl, much less to have any social life. It was chionging all the way from the start till the end of the exams.

Ah, what a long story! But what's longer was my wait ya know. How long have I waited just to spend a good few hours with my beloved Gina?

You know, before meeting her today I had my fears. After all it has been so long. It brings tears to my heart whenever I try to think about her and all I could remember was that she was someone dear to me. And yet I couldn't remember how she sounds like, how she looks like or even how she became so dear to me in the first place. It was scary, as though I've had an amnesia, yet sad, as though I had lost a loved one.

Luckily for me, it turned out to be a really pleasant meeting despite all the worries! When she first called out my name all feelings of familiarity returned.=) And her smile made me feel so comfy and happy instantly.=) Ah! Anyways, we went for lunch and talked over our meal. We got along well, I guess. She probably never knew, but that was probably my best meal of the year. It was also the first outing where I didn't feel awkward and out of place.

As with every other gathering, there's a time for separation. Even though I would prefer it to be a happy one, I couldn't help feeling sad.

I think I just made myself feel really really sad again. I just stared at the screen for 10 minutes.

Argh. I can't get the sadness out of my mind. This is giving me a mental block. I can't remember what I wanted to write.

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Maybe, just maybe, deep down inside I just want to forget all about her again for now so I wouldn't feel so sad anymore.


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To my Future