Oh my god. I'm drunk.
Seriously drunk. And I just got hhome on my bike. haha. And I just realised that i'm damn bloody pro on my bike. when i'm on my bike i'm like a god-totally alert dodging obstacles by centimetres instinctively. I think that's because i've rode my bike more than a thousand times already. Yea. So the muscle memory's fucking imprinted into me. Haha.
So, I went to Chevron's for a Christmas celebration tonight. I promised myself that I'll get myself drunk tonight. And I told many of my friends too. Haha. I think i'm crazy. And They ask my how i'm going to get home. I said by bike. And they ask how many times have I drank. i replied that this was my second time. Haha. I'm crazyh
So I asked them how much do I need to drink before i'll get drunk . I've already drank a bottle of erdinger? Yaea. Something like that. Zhuang Wei said 4 more glass of tiger beer and I'm somewhere there already. so i said i'll drink that muich. but if i don't get drunk, i'll keeep on drink ing till i've capped at 2 bottles of beer (i've only got 2 coupons) and 10-cups fo tiger beer. haha.
And guess what. I think i was already drunk at my first bottles of erdinger. but they insisted that i'm not drunk uet. what i'm experienceing was merely the effects of alcohol. Feeling light-headed wasn't considered drunk. Moreover, i was still able to stand and talk. Sadi mervyn. Ying Bo said that when I get drunk it would be my friends telling me and not me telling my friends that i'm drunk. haah. so i took their workds.
about 2 bottles and 8 glasses later, i think my friends confirmed that i was drunk. i think even one of the waitress who served me beer told me that i'm drunk and i should stop. earlier on she heard me telling my friend this was my second time drinking beer. the first time was during the specs mess initiation in 30 SCE. so i've never been drunk before. hehe. yea. she asked me if i was ok a few times before too. wa, to care for me even though we're strangers. haha. i'm touched lei.
but then again. i could still walk. though the images are confusing me, i can still avoid obstacles perfectly. without hesitation too. i think i hesitate too much when i'm conscious. i think too much. fuck it. haha. i've gone tipsy. i think i've lost it already. but i still look ok. i'm just too good an actor, maybe. or maybe it's my willpowver. the will to stay and look focused and alert when inside i'm already cui. haha.
so anyway. everyone told me not to ride my bike home. but i told them i will. they said i'm crazy. that's only something one who is drunk will say. i said i'm probably drunk but i'll still ride my bike home. zhuang wei wanted me to hand my phone over so that he can call my parents. so i showed him my mom's handphone no. but then i took the phone from him at the very last minute and told him there was no need to. haha. he told me i'm seriously drunk and i'm out of my mind.
sometime down the road, i vomitted. it was so natural. like i knew it was coming. and i told people i was going to the toilet to vomit. and vomit i did. bleagh. out it came. until i was done. i was so natural i couldn't actually believe it. when i had stomach flu, i simply resisted the vomitting and took the anti-vomitting pill and endured it all. but this time i vomitted without the slightest hesitation. i guess when you're drunk everything seems so easy-decisions are made on the spot. haha.
right. so in the end, i took my leave without anyone noticing. or you can call it sneaking out. haha. I made my way to my bike at the lamppost at the back of the parking lot without the slightest stagger even when the whole world is spinning. though i was a bit drunk, i was steady. I was expecting the drunkenness and i guess that gave me some mental preparations. haha.
And I made a choice that most when conscious wouldn't make-to ride my bike home. relax. It's not a motorbike, just a bicycle. but still, drink riding's probably dangerous too. i'm aware of that, but to gain an experience, there're some things i have to try out.
Turns out that i was simply godlike when i'm on my bike. Haha. I was totally awake. But whenever I stopped the bike at traffic junctions, the dizziness kicks in again. And I sway here and there when i'm dizzzy. haha.
Anyway, I think few believed that I'm drunk. I told sis that i'm drunk when i got home. she didn't think that I'm drunk. I told my parents that I got myself drunk and still rode my bike home. The very fact that I did that prove that I'm drunk. I would never tell my parents that if I'm in the right mind. But still, they didn't think I was drunk. My psychomotor skills were still perfect. Until I told them I drank 2 bottles plus 10 glasses of beer to convince them that I must be drunk. hehe.
Maybe my willpower pulled me through it all. But still, this will be the last time I get myself drunk crazy. One time of me losing control over myself will be all. Yea. Luckily I wasn't raped or molested or something. haha. If not I would totally be dazed and unable to react. haha. not like i'll actually react fast enough even if i'm not drunk though. got molested by some gay dude once and i was simply too stunned to retaliate..
Well, anyway, it's past 12 already.
Happy 19th Birthday Gina! haha. Gina's birthday's on the 24th! This came a bit late on my post but here it is anyway. She's the best friend i'll ever get. Nice, caring, chatty and sensitive. She would make a really good sister or mother. Haha. I'm really random. And well, times are going to be hard and we're probably going to be really busy. But still, I really wish that Gina and I will stay close and keep in contact. =) Yep.
So anyway, getting drunk isn't good. I think i'm still drunk right now but I still need to go take a shower before I go sleep. Ah. Fuck. My head's dizzy at the thought of showering. But i'll do it anyway.
Goodnight.
Argh.
From my Past,
To my Future
